Dad

It’s been 3 years and I wonder why you had to go?
You were in pain and suffering, yet didn’t let anyone know
What were you thinking & what was on your mind?
When you knew you were taking breaths one final time?
I had written a list on that February 6th
And at the bottom it read, “call dad”
I wanted to share with you about a job that paid real good money
I was excited and thought I could send some home
Dad, I knew you were smiling on the outside but felt all alone
I saw pain in your eyes but I also saw love
I remember that last time you looked at me, when you were standing above
Standing on your porch watching me drive away
I’m glad we had that time together for one final day
We reminisced on the past and talked about the future
I sat with you and my girl and you asked her to take care of me
Was it then that you knew you were about to go?
Was that your message to let me know this was the last time?
She didn’t tell me for weeks that you asked her that
Dad I’m doing just fine and she still has my back
We placed you in the ground on Valentines Day
You loved the spotlight and wouldn't have it any other way
I am a man now as I’ve grown and developed with time
I forgive you dad for not always being who I wanted
I forgive you dad for not being perfect
I thank you for giving me the things that I need
I thank you for teaching me how to sew, iron and weed
I thank you for being my number 1 sports fan
It was great having you in the dugout for my first pitch
I loved having you in the stands watching each pass
And watching me in track being so fast
You liked watching me play bball while showing my D
And standing on the outside to shoot an occasional 3
You were there to watch me accept my degree
It's sad to know you won't see me get married
It sad that your future grandchild won't get carried
Your memory still lives and it always will
No one can ever take that away from me
When the wind blows and the leaves shake from the tree
It's then I know you're still watching over me

Love Her

Love her because you know she loves you
Stop playing games and truly love her too
She has made a mistake
And so have you
It’s time to move on and treat her like a queen
Trust that she is going to make you her king
It’s time to stop holding her to standards that even you would fail
If you do than maybe one day you will lift up her vail
You could watch her walk down that aisle
It would all be worth it, every step, every mile
Be a leader and allow her to follow
Guide her every step and hold on to her hand
Show her and her family why you’re worthy to be her man
Love is patient, Love is kind
It’s not everyday true love is what you find
Is this love?
Honestly I don’t know
But the only way to find out is to let go
Let go of my insecurities, pride and fears
You gotta make a choice, what’s it’s going to be
Are you going to keep her captive or set her free?