What's Next

I can sit in a crowded room and feel I’m all alone in this place
It’s like I don’t even matter and no one even looks at my face
If I cut myself and leave a trace of blood would it get me the attention I feel I deserve?
I have anger building through my veins
Can I control it?
I don’t know
What happens if I cant?
I don’t know
I’m lost and have no trail to follow
Where is my light?
Where is my day?
Where is my night?
I’m scared & I’m afraid
I’m naïve & I’m brave
I’ve shown the signs and no one pays attention
This isn’t fake
It isn’t a game
It’s real life
My life
Not many care and the ones that do where are they?
Be afraid, be scared
Be Bold
Just know this is the story I told

Something about the name: Jesus

What’s His Name: Jesus
I hope you love Him: Jesus
He loves you: Jesus
I can’t help but say his name: Jesus
The one name that matters: Jesus
Who loves you more than anyone: Jesus
The healer of all healers: Jesus
The saint of all saints: Jesus
The beginning: Jesus
The End: Jesus
The present: Jesus
The past: Jesus
The future: Jesus
It’s Him: Jesus
He’s in me: Jesus
He’s in you: Jesus
Say that name: Jesus
His Holy name: Jesus
His amazing name: Jesus
His eternal name: Jesus
The sweetest name I know: Jesus

Love People. Love God

The weekend here and I am def happy about that, praise God! I had an interesting day so far this morning. I planned to have breakfast with a friend of mine that I haven't seen in at least 2-3 years. She was a girl I used to date and someone I hold in high esteem as one of the most quality females I've ever met. I didn't know what I would think or feel in seeing her but it was nice that I could sit down and have a convo with her over a meal and just see her as a friend. During my time of lonliness I didn't know if i would have some sense of feelings for her or what, but she's still an amazing person, amazing as my friend.

She talked to me about a job offer in CT that would be a wonderful opportunity and give me a great experience. The job entails so many things that I love to do and as much as I don't like living in my current city, I have an amazing job that's hard to pass up. The salary and benefits are just great and the job secruity is needed. I love the kids but I've worked with kids very closely in at leat 5-6 cities and this is true: You can build relationships and find wonderful kids everywhere. I dont worry or doubt about that. I have kids I've worked with from a lot of places that I hold near to my heart.

I'm still trying to listen to God, trying to see what He has in store for me. I dont hear anything though, maybe I'm not listening. I just wish I could hear His voice and He would tell me what He needs from me in order to be happy, successful in all walks and for me to have the desires of my heart. What is it that you need from me Lord? What do I need to do? Where am I failing? I'm calling out to you? Here's my call, please give me a sign. Give me direction and guidance. I can't do this alone and maybe I'm trying to do it alone, maybe I'm trying to live this life with the wrong people. Where are the right ones? It's all about that name, so I will say: Jesus Christ the Messiah!

Love that name: Jesus

It's power in that name: Jesus

I'm about to write a poem and it's gonna be about this name: Jesus

Love,
Champ