Why? 2011

Today I sit and reflect on life and the first word that comes to mind is “why”
Why am I in so much pain? Outside it’s sunny & bright but in my home it’s stormy and rain
Why do I feel so alone? I suffer on the outside but it’s the pain on the inside that makes me moan
Why do I feel incomplete? Lord you are the only one that can truly make me whole
Lord my mind is racing with so many thoughts that I can’t keep track of them all
I need you to help me sort them out because if you don’t I know I will fall
I need your guidance cause with my life, I feel so confused
This is a crossroads of life and I’m tired of being used
Why is what I ask
Why is what I say
Will I continue to ask why, each and everyday
I feel like I’m running in circles and I’m never going anywhere
The only time I realized that I have advanced is because of the length of my hair
Do I do anything that matters?
Or am I far to connected to the world
This world is evil and you have warned me about loving this place
I feel stuck and but I need to move without leaving a trace?
Lord, do you hear me?
Do you understand my cry?
I need to make a change, but I don’t know what it is I need
I’m calling on you to be my eyes to see
I’m calling on you to be my ears to hear
I’m calling on you to be my brain to think
I’m calling on you to be my legs to walk
I’m calling on you to be my mouth to talk
Lord, what do you need from me?
Lord, what do I need from you?
Everything, is what I need from you
Everything, is what my desire should be
Everything, is what you have given me
Oh Lord, I know the truth
Oh Lord, what do I deserve?
I deserve nothing!
Nothing is what I deserve.
Lord you are all loving and you would never leave me alone
Please fill my heart, let me feel your presence
A million people in a room will not give me what I desire from you
Your life, your compassion, your faithfulness is what’s true
I need to stop trying to fill your love in all the wrong places because it leads me back to the same place
Nowhere!
Love me oh Lord even when I don’t show my love to you
Trust me when I say I do truly love you!